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| User: | mka_parishilton (5895970) Carving away the body to-symbolically and literally-carve up an imperfect soul
You will be the death of me. And I want to die. I welcome it with open arms. |
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| Name: | L | |||
| Website: | Other ED journal | |||
| Bio: | Every time you feel like letting go, remember all the reasons you held on so long. "We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, students, and business owners. We have depression, DID(Dissociative Identity Disorder), PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder), eating disorders, borderline personalities, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some were not. We are straight, bi, and gay. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every single race or religion that you can possibly think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks."  Thin is beautiful The first time I realized I had a serious problem with myself was when I was bored in studyhall. I would just fool around and draw characters from the stories I write, the RPs [role plays] that I do, just regular, everyday people. I wanted to envision what they would look like. I'd draw boys and girls, it didn't really matter. When I looked at them and compared them for the first time, I was mortified. They all looked like Holocaust victims. Their hip bones were jutting out, ribs prominately showing, legs so small and thin that they would break instantly, arms that were barely there, their spine looked like it wanted to escape from their body but was being held in by ugly skin, their shoulder blades were so prominately sticking out that it looked like the skin would break, everything could be seen from the simple bones of their hands, their breast bones, collar bones, even their esophagus was showing. When I saw the pictures, I was amazed that something so terrifying could come from someone like me. I stared at them for hours it seemed, and then I realized, that was what I wanted to be. -- Taken from my journal "I'll never feel the power of who I am. I changed my hair color thinking no one would notice me. When I'm not with my siser [and people recognize me], I just deny who I am. But then I'll be at Sav-on and not have any cash and have to give them a credit card. So I say, 'Sorry, I lied.' Then just run out." - Mary-Kate Olsen
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| Interests: | 139: 68 lbs, addiction, angelina jolie, anorexia, anorexia nervosa, appearence, beauty, becoming thin, being beautiful, being perfect, being strong, being thin, binge, binge and purge, binge eating, binge purge, binging, body, body image, body issues, body modifications, body obsession, bones, bulemia, bulimarexia, bulimia, burning, burning calories, calories, cleansing, collar bones, control, depression, determination, diet, dieting, diets, discipline, drugs, eating, eating disorder, eating disorders, ed, ed buddies, ed-nos, excercising, excersise, exercise, exercising, fad diets, fasting, fasts, fat, fat-free, food, giving in, goals, grace, gym, hate food, helping, hunger, inspiration, losing 30 pounds, lovely, low weight, mary-kate olsen, metabolife, mia, mind, models, negative calorie foods, nervosa, nonfat, obsession, orange juice, pain, perfect, perfect body, perfection, petite, pills, poems, poetry, pretty, pro ana, pro anorexia, pro anorexic, pro bulimia, pro ed, pro mia, pro-ana, pro-choice, pro-ed, pro-mia, pro-si, puking, purge, purging, reading, restriction, scales, self image, self-control, self-improvement, shoulder blades, sickly thin, skin and bones, skinny, starvation, starving, stick thin, strength, supermodels, tea, the perfect body, thin, thinner, thinness, thinspiration, throwing up, tiny, tracy gold, vanity, vegan, venting, vomiting, want, water, water-only, weight, weight issues, weight loss, weight-loss, winning, working out, wounds, writing, writing ana | |||
| Schools: | None listed | |||
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| Mutual Friends: | 21: __________tilly, ___ic0nalicious, ___symphony, __perfectxxfuck, _beautifunk, _mona__lisa, _prettypixels, aboutjane, alainacutie, ana_angel_18, angelic_babe4, brunettewithin, catique, famousicons, gh_angel, jupiter21, looksharp911, nancy410, pinklemonae, raininginmymind, stupidity_eats | |||
| Account type: | Basic Account | |||
